Suddenly...It's Spring

Spring comes without warning, it seems.  Suddenly everything is green, flowers are blooming, and the world is waking up.  New life is everywhere.  Robins are hopping around our backyard, some are building nests in nearby trees and shrubs.  There is an expectancy in the air.

The cycle of grief is a recursive one.  Back and forth it seems to go for months on end.  Great sadness, numbness, depression, exhaustion; until one day a memory comes and it is not painful but poignant.  Rather than a tear falling, a smile comes and with it a hint of joy and a lightness of spirit.

Ten months have passed since we lost our Lacy.  We made it through some big firsts; birthday, Father's Day, Thanksgiving, Christmas.  The anniversary date of his home-going is not far away.

In these ten months, Kenny and I have begun to find our way into new patterns and traditions. Sunday afternoons have become a time for visiting friends, enjoying walks, or just relaxing.  We spent Christmas 2016 on the beach in Florida, and have booked another beach adventure for this coming Christmas.  We are seeing our future as one of possibilities, not reminders of loss.

God gave us a great gift when He brought Lacy to us.  We gained so much wisdom through our relationship with our son.   Having joy in the moment, being "all in" whatever the challenge.  Worshipping day and night, sunshine and rain; and even when our voice fails us, rejoicing in God's great gift of salvation.  Lacy is part of who we are, our past and our future.

Spring is here suddenly and with it the promise of new life.  We are looking forward to what the next season of life will bring us.

Comments

  1. GrandmaNanaMarch 25, 2017 at 12:33 PM

    Debbie and Kenny, you are such examples of strength! It is so good to see this post. And good to hear your grief is turning toward precious memories. You were great parents! Lacy had a good life thanks to you two.

    Inez

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  2. bonesong1@gmail.comMarch 25, 2017 at 2:49 PM

    What grace God visits upon us with the gift of a child and that sustains you as you go on until you see him again. Love and hugs to you both on this journey!

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  3. Uncle KennyMarch 26, 2017 at 8:10 PM

    Amen my Debbie Lon.

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  4. UnknownMay 1, 2017 at 8:21 PM

    Thanks for sharing your life. You encourage me.

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