A Dream
We are able to compartmentalize our lives most of the time, putting feelings in a box and opening when needed. My mother has always said that I feel things very deeply, but just don't let myself express it, and she is right. If I let myself connect with what is happening, and look to the future, I am overwhelmed. But sometimes it is good to look ahead, and to realize that time is short. Kenny and I remind ourselves how important it is to see Lacy whenever we can, to pray for him every day. My heart hurts on a daily basis for my boy. I feel pain in the pit of my stomach at least once a day. Every moment not filled with other tasks is spent thinking about, and praying for, our son. Memories of him as a child flood my mind. Why does time go so swiftly when children are young? Why can't I remember all the sweet and wonderful moments that we must have shared? The memories come and go. But here we are, in the here and now, and we want time to slow down. So Tuesday ni